Last night my boyfriend, I mean fiance, Chris Macrina, proposed to me. I am the happiest girl on the planet!!! You see, this is the first time I’ve ever received a proposal. You might say, “WHAT!?!?! But weren’t you married before?!!?” Yes I was married once before, but there was no proposal and no ring, we kind of agreed to get married over the phone when we were living in different states. (I did receive one 9 years later)
I convinced myself for years that I didn’t need a ring, that it didn’t matter, but the truth is, it did. In fact, I believe it set a precedent in my marriage, it made me feel less important, that I was not worthy of spending money on a ring, size didn’t matter. But what hurt more is that I didn’t feel important enough to spend the energy on a proposal, the ring could’ve come out of a gumball machine for all I cared.
It was never about the ring, it was about being face to face, eyes to eyes, hand in hand, heart to heart and hearing my love say, “I love you. Will you marry me? Will you be my lifelong partner?” To see in his eyes and hear in his heart that he can’t imagine life without me….priceless!
That’s all I ever wanted…and last night, that’s what I got.
I’m sad for that insecure girl I once was but I feel triumphant to have had the courage to swim through wind and current to get where I am today.
His amazing and generous love make me feel loved, cherished and adored. He is not just my rock, he is my boulder.
Note…The ring did not come from a gumball machine. It is exquisite, spectacular and unique.
He did REAL good!!!!!